When I Grow Up

No pictures today....   just a bit of journaling for the baby book.

Boring, I know....but I'll try to keep it short.


This has been so heavily on my heart recently, and I wanted to record my thoughts before they were gone.

For as far back as I can remember, all I ever wanted to be was a Mommy.  When being asked as a child "what do you want to be when you grow up," I always answered with a specific career or important sounding job.  But really.....  all I truly wanted to do, was be a mom.

In college, I pursued a degree that I enjoyed, but more importantly... that I thought would accompany mommy-hood the best.  Long before our baby was ever planned....   I was thinking of them.

My dream was always to stay home with our babies.... it's all I wanted in a "career."  But when Troy decided to study medicine, I knew I would be working for much longer than desired.  School would be a long road for him, and me staying home with our children wouldn't work for us.

We took our sweet time having babies.  That was never the plan, but the day I married Troy.... my mommy desires subsided instantly.  I loved him, and our life together, so much....  that I wanted nothing to change.  We were having too much fun....soaking up just one another.  We enjoyed 6 years of marriage.... just the two of us, before the baby desire entered our hearts again.

 But even during those six years of just the two of us, those babies were never far from our thoughts.  We were still keeping them in mind with all life decisions.  Troy chose the field of medicine that he did, largely so that he could be home with his family in the evenings and on weekends.....a rarity in medicine.
I've spent the last 9 and half years working for a company that I knew would be ideal for having young children.  My schedule was a good one for a family.

But then our little baby (pregnancy) arrived....  and I wondered how I would ever for one minute leave them with someone else.  It was devastating to me.  But with Troy in residency....  I knew I would have to.  I would have no choice.

What I didn't know is how strongly Troy would feel about this.  He was immediately in love with our baby, and the idea of it being home.  And from the beginning of pregnancy, he decided that we would do whatever necessary, so that I could stay home with our little one.

And when he said whatever necessary, he meant it.  He said we would sale our home and downsize to an apartment.....  give up a vacation .....  eliminate luxuries that we don't think twice about.... go down to one car....whatever it would take. The thought of giving up my income was scary and almost crazy...  but we would find a way to make it happen.  And we knew it wouldn't be forever.  Residency is nearing completion... and we can somewhat see a light at the end of the long medicine training tunnel.

I of course was on board with all of this.  I knew I would make any sacrifice for this baby.....besides... I would live in a card board box if it meant being with them.  Staying home would feel more like a privilege...  a huge honor....  than it ever would a sacrifice.

For several months we calculated what measures we would need to take to make this happen come July.  But the Lord had other plans.  Plans to take care of us in ways we never thought possible.  Plans to make this an easier transition, and plans to take away our financial concerns and worries regarding this decision.

Plans to make my mommy dream come true.


I know that for those that love me and know me best.....  this disclaimer is not necessary.  But for anyone else... I feel it must be said.  I in no way whatsoever think that childcare is bad, negative, or a poor decision to make for a child.  I know it can be a wonderful thing.  And some of the BEST mommies I know are working mommas.  So this post is not in any way to speak negatively of childcare or working mommies.  I was going to be one myself.....  and even planned and prepared accordingly for many years.

This post is more for my own memories regarding this pregnancy.

So that I never forget what it felt like the day Troy told me he wanted me to stay home, and that he would work to do whatever possible to make it happen.

So that I never forget that long list of sacrifices we were willing to make...  so that my dream could become a reality.

So that I never forget the emotional and special way the Lord continues to bless us in this area of our life.

I am still overwhelmed with all of this...   a husband that is willing to make great sacrifices for a baby he has never met.....and a God who knows what we need...when we need it.....and continues to provide for us in ways we know we don't deserve.

I've sobbed many times over the last month when thinking of this decision... of how it has been made possible.... and how my life becomes more beautiful every day.

Just when I think that life can't be any sweeter......  it does.

Maybe it is hormones....

Or maybe it's that I've realized that I'm finally getting my "when I grow up, I want to be...."

A stay at home mommy.

All in a Weekend

Here are some photos from our weekend....   by far my favorite weekend this year.


Most of you know of our Valentine's Day ultrasound.

I still think it was such a special way to spend the day.

When I say we counted down the minutes until 2:00 Friday.....  I mean that literally.  

We absolutely could not wait to see if our Valentine ultrasound would reveal a Romeo or Juliet.

And we weren't the only ones excited......    I love saving text from days like this... it's like an online scrapbook/baby book that we'll always have....

And I'm sure most of you have heard by now of our exciting news.....

We absolutely can't believe it.

A baby BOY!

Mom, Dad & Kandice had a priceless reaction.  I loved every second of it!  I wish I would have snapped more photos, but I was too excited to hold still :)

Not knowing the gender until their arrival to our home.....  they all brought gifts for both a girl and boy :)

Here are a few of my favorite ultrasound photos.

Have you EVER seen a baby do this??

The lady that did the ultrasound laughed the entire time.  She said she had never seen a baby do such a thing ;)

I told her it was because he's SO SWEET and listens to his Mamma.  I had a talk with the baby on the way to the appointment.... and asked them to PLEASE cooperate and show Mommy & Daddy what they are. No curling up into a ball where we couldn't see!

He's already so good ;)

We spent the weekend in our baby blue......

....and baby shopping with my parents!

Dad was wanting to plan his own nursery for their house ;-)

I think every girl has dreamed of the day she can go baby shopping for her own.

It was exactly what I had always imagined.


And speaking of shopping for our baby.....


I can't tell you how many times I've walked past this bassinet in Pottery Barn, and imagined having it for my own someday.  It sat in the back left corner of the store for years.....   and I've coveted it ever since.

On Sunday, I got online to look at it again, and learned that it had been discontinued, and could no longer be purchased.  I frantically called the store and learned that they had only one left.

Troy said it was meant for our baby boy.....

I still can't walk past it without getting emotional.  Not because of the bassinet....though it is the most BEAUTIFUL thing I've ever seen....  but because of my sweet baby boy that will soon adorn it.

Fit for a prince!

I just can't believe that this is my life.

And that's not the only thing we purchased this weekend.

I wanted to remember the very first purchases/outfits made for our baby boy.....

I'm in awe of how fast you can fall in love with a baby you've yet to see....yet to hold.

And I'm also amazed at how you can fall....  over and over again.

We've loved our baby since the first pregnancy test read positive.

We learned of a new and even stronger love, the day we heard its heartbeat, and saw it move on the small screen in front of us.

And now.... to know it's a baby boy....  we spent the weekend falling in love..... all over again.

Falling in love with our new son..... our new hopes, our new dreams.....  our new life.

All in a weekend.

It's almost inconceivable that you can fall that hard....that fast.....  for a 10 ounce bundle of baby boy......

but then again....

...i fell in love with his father during a 3 minute slow dance.

So I should have expected such love ......so fast.


Thanks for reading tonight.  Have a wonderful evening!

Love,

Kristin

Valentine Gender Reveal!

           
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Baby Update & More!

I have several weeks worth of photos to share.....

and many of you have asked for a baby update :)


But before baby talk......

let's talk the other big Davis event......the wedding!



A few weeks ago, Sarah's best friend surprised her and Eric with an engagement party....

It was the first Davis family get together since losing Dad.  And just what we needed I think.  An enjoyable evening!


And speaking of wedding.....  Sarah was sweet enough to invite me to go wedding dress shopping!

I would love to post photos of her trying on dresses......   but my brother in law occasionally reads this blog, so I wouldn't dare ;)


I did however capture her engagement ring against several dresses......  beautiful!

Here are a few photos from game night at Heather & Adam's.  My camera died, so you'll have to ignore the poor quality of the cell phone pics.


We had appetizers, pizza, and apple "materni-tinis" (maternity martinis) ......  non alcoholic cocktails for expecting and nursing mommies!  So sweet of Adam to make for Heather and I.

All of us in this group are huge Disney fans......hence, our choice of game!

My favorite part of the evening was spending time with beautiful baby Katherine!

Thank you to Adam & Heather for hosting dinner for us!  And to Mona for keeping all of our calendars in sync :)



Sam had her work girls over last weekend, and invited me too!

I told Sam that the fact that this many women work together.....and all get along.... is truly a blessing!

Thank you to Sam and her work girls for letting me crash their party :)



I had a birthday this week!

Troy took me out to celebrate with one of my favorite meals.....

As did my parents and family......

Mom of course had a my favorite homemade birthday cake, and a beautiful table waiting for me after lunch.....

Thank you to my family for another great birthday!


Jennifer, Sam, and I are all a week a part, and we always get together to celebrate our birthdays.

At the last minute, we ditched our plans to go out and cooked together at home instead.

In our sweats :)

Kandice came too, but didn't make this picture :)

A few weeks full of parties and get-togethers have been fun....

but really....

our biggest joy these days is our little love on the way.

It's all we think about.....talk about....

I wonder what ever occupied our mind before this little one.

I'm constantly being asked how I'm feeling, what are my symptoms, cravings, etc.

And I love it!  I love when someone cares enough to ask about our baby.

And I love being able to record these pregnancy memories for us to look back on.  So here's a quick update....


Symptoms:  Close to nothing!  It's been a dream pregnancy so far.  I've not had one moment of nausea or discomfort in any way!  Really, the only symptom I had in the first trimester was fatigue. I am normally up until 11:30/midnight, but during the first three months, I was doing good to make it until 8:30. :)   Now that we're well into the second trimester, the fatigue is gone and I continue to feel great.  When someone ask how I'm feeling, I always tease and say "our baby is so sweet..... it would never make its momma sick."   Haha ;)

Physical changes/baby belly:  Really nothing in the belly during the first trimester.....   but since this is my memory book  (sorry)....  I would like to note that my bra size....  oh goodness.....that's another story! It was an immediate change, and my first indication that I could be expecting.
  At about the 16 week mark, I began to notice the belly changing....   and over the last week, I've noticed a significant difference.  I am currently 19 weeks, and I think my days of using the pony tail holder to extend my regular jeans .......are nearing the end.

Cravings:  For the first month I wanted nothing but Papa Johns pizza.  So gross!  I normally detest Papa Johns, but for some reason, it's all I wanted :)  The second month I craved a cheeseburger and a shake (why can't I crave fruit and broccoli like some expecting mothers???), and ever since.... I've wanted nothing but Mexican.  :)

Baby:  At the 18th week, I wondered if I felt the first flutter.  I'm longing to feel the baby kick and move.  Everything I read says between 17-22 weeks.  So hopefully not much longer!

And here are the belly pics that some of you have requested......


I started from the very beginning....  literally :)

Week 6.....

The first photo of our little love (December 26th).....


have you every seen anything so sweet??

And a photo from one of our post baby appointment lunches (which has become a tradition!).....

And this week marks the most important baby week thus far.......

it's gender week!!!

I ran errands today in my pink and blue (thank you Ann for passing this shirt on to me!) to celebrate our upcoming news......

Tomorrow.....  ON VALENTINE'S DAY.....  we will find out if our sweet little love is a Romeo or Juliet.

How perfect!?  I can't think of a sweeter, more romantic way to spend Valentine's Day.


We simply can't wait.  I probably won't sleep a wink tonight, knowing that it's hours until we learn of what God has blessed us with.  It's so very exciting!!

I can't believe that I've already reached the 1/2 way point of this pregnancy.  Five months has flown by.  I hope to treasure every minute of the next four months.

I think that's it for now!


Thank you for reading tonight.


I hope that my next post will be the big gender reveal!

Love,

Kristin